I’ve been having really dark thoughts lately. I think something is wrong with me. I dont have anyone to rationalize these feelings with me, or anyone to just laugh and brush it off with me. I’m sick of this lonliness, i’m sick of feeling like a burden to everyone around me. I’m sick of waking up with a whole day ahead of me, and nothing to look forward to. I honestly don’t know what to even fucking do anymore. I’m scared. I,wish boyfriend was closer. I love him, but he gets annoyed when i’m upset. No one will read this so I really don’t give a fuck. Fuck everything. I’m lonely and I need to get used to it and take advantage of all this free time.
If I dont get paid tomorrow, I’m just gonna fuck my boyfriend until it hurts to move. Its a win win really.
Hurt. Self.
